the patriarchy and break ups podcast I’ll just go ahead and say it: this isn’t my best podcast. I feel scattered and a bit baffled by the facts of my existence at the moment, but I’ve had this on my heart to say. And, well, when I want to say something…I say it. I hope … Continue reading do gender norms harm us in break ups?
mental health
so I dropped out of law school…
https://open.spotify.com/episode/49y2pHm77ZgjX2sIYopTSa?si=BrsyrNpVQhaePRYkQtDuvg that loud girl podcast 8/16/23 Apple Podcasts
top ten amazon must-haves for mental wellness and living with ADHD
Howdy, friends. I'm going to just make this list as concise and easily digestible as possible because we all want the goods with no fluff, right? I don't have time to read my own longwinded posts, so I'm sure you don't, either. Let's try to do this the Buzzfeed way! this timer or this timer … Continue reading top ten amazon must-haves for mental wellness and living with ADHD
a blue christmas
I know that there plenty of real reasons for people to have a hard time over the holidays, emotionally speaking — thinking of those who aren’t here to celebrate, dealing with family that doesn’t feel so much like family, having all the memories of holidays past plastered in your mind as points of comparison to … Continue reading a blue christmas
my favorite podcast i’ve done maybe
https://open.spotify.com/episode/2iDlZ4FqhISUuBR1YE1Uqv?si=786x8v5oSA6RFfMDjcriVA If you know me, you know how much my mom means to me. The way she handled my mental illness is why I'm standing here today. Please consider giving this a listen if you or a loved one has been going through it. This would be great for parents looking for guidance!
mental health awareness month challenge
mental health awareness month challenge
Before I get started, however, I want to dedicate this post to someone I've never met before but who has nevertheless changed my life forever. I want to honor the memory of Lee MacMillan, a "van life" social media influencer whose travel vlogs I've watched for years. She actually ended up moving to Santa Barbara, … Continue reading mental health awareness month challenge
please seek professional help if you are hurting (or maybe if you’re not)
I've somehow found myself in the very fortunate position of being someone to whom people reach out for advice every once in a while, and I want to take on that role as humbly and responsibly as possible. I've received a great deal of anonymous comments from readers, ranging from the kindest thanks to the … Continue reading please seek professional help if you are hurting (or maybe if you’re not)
feeling lost
I want to be honest -- right now I feel lost. I know that being in recovery isn't a straight line upward, that there are dips and curves along the way. I know that life isn't always easy. I just didn't expect to feel this sense of sadness and confusion again this year, a year … Continue reading feeling lost
easy ways that i self-soothe
As I round out my second victory lap of undergrad, I have become very acclimatized to generalized, constant anxiety. I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder in 2018 after battling it for a few years without any type of outside aid, and it had reached the point of being crippling. I was unable to leave … Continue reading easy ways that i self-soothe
listen here!
https://open.spotify.com/episode/5OSGPgv6XT8N0t1ib025oy?si=PFOw4eIuQlGFyC-DlX0yxQ If you've got a drive to make or simply some time to kill, why don't you spend it with my good friend Lee Carl and me? We disagree on a lot, but it doesn't ever stop us from having a good time and great conversation. Here we cover our mental health maintenance routines (up … Continue reading listen here!
a list of reminders that the world isn’t all bad
I'm putting this on the internet because I just realized I've been desperately combing social media for the past hour seeking out reassurance that I myself could provide. I'm in a place today where I feel...stuck. I've been doing schoolwork nonstop for weeks, and I'm about to hunker down for the rest of the semester … Continue reading a list of reminders that the world isn’t all bad
how I deal with the haters
Howdy friends! I just found this draft from a few years back, and it spoke to some wounds of mine that have since reopened. I found it helpful, so I thought I might just dump it on the internet. It's been a minute since I've written something that makes it sound like I'm a way … Continue reading how I deal with the haters
on suicide
If you or anyone you know is struggling, help is available. Speak with a (free) counselor today. National Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255 Writing this feels like I'm standing before an emotional firing squad, waiting to hear the first shot that will bring me to my knees and shove the air from my lungs. Waiting to be … Continue reading on suicide
what I learned from my time in the psych ward
This topic is tricky. I hope it sounds intriguing, because being hospitalized for mental illness definitely led to some of the most bizarre and most interesting experiences of my life. It’s hard to talk about though. For one, obviously the events that led me to the hospital — once in California and once in Mississippi … Continue reading what I learned from my time in the psych ward
ways to keep yourself out of the psych ward during all this pandemic craziness
Set a routine and hold yourself to it. This is something I am so terrible at that I have never done it for more than a few months at a time, but when I do I feel such a big difference in my stability. Staying sane is the hardest fight in the world, and it … Continue reading ways to keep yourself out of the psych ward during all this pandemic craziness
being okay with falling behind
I actually wrote this in October to post on Facebook, so, if another human is actually caring or curious enough to open this blog, you may have already read this one. It includes excerpts from some of my more hard-hitting ramblings about mental health that can be found in other entries further down this rabbit … Continue reading being okay with falling behind
ending the stigma. or whatever.
It was World Mental Health Day last week, and I spent it as, I would guess, most did. I scrolled through social media, came across some posts about ending mental health stigma, thought for the appropriate number of seconds about how much I agreed with that mission, and then, as a gesture of how woke … Continue reading ending the stigma. or whatever.
Protected: another 5:50 AM-er (on depression and worthlessness)
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empty: depression from its tighest grips *trigger warning: talk of suicide, self harm*
It makes me laugh that I originally titled this thatloudgirl. Maybe I was, when I had ideas and jokes and stories to draw people in, to make them interested in getting to know a mediocre-looking hick who got her laughs lazily. I don't feel very loud at all now. In fact, I don't feel anything … Continue reading empty: depression from its tighest grips *trigger warning: talk of suicide, self harm*
Protected: something I wrote immediately pre-psychosis
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the first (and maybe the only)
It's 3:03 a.m. and I have to be awake in four hours. As you can see, my life is in shambles. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with this. I couldn't sleep, so I was on Facebook (naturally) and came across a blog of a senior in my sorority that she'd started when … Continue reading the first (and maybe the only)
that loud girl 